I started blogging back in 2006 because I love to write. Blogging is a good way for me to record life, to let off steam, to work things out in my head. I'm honest and oftentimes pour my heart out in my posts. It's my own little space in the world where I don't have to worry about what other people think.
Then I quit blogging. Life took some crazy turns. I was hurting. Although I was pretty certain no one read what I wrote, I just couldn't put my life out there anymore. I'd see comments on other blogs...some just full of hate. I knew those types of comments would break me. I was already breaking, and I couldn't not imagine the pain of anyone else judging my life.
Then life got better. I started blogging again. I tried to become more involved in blogging communities and twitter conversations, but I failed. Or more honestly, I gave up. My life is not perfect, and I had this nagging feeling that if I really, really let the world see me they would not approve. I got scared.
I still post, but I don't share. But as the days go by, I often wish someone would take notice of my life in words. I wonder if anyone out there has gone through what I'm going through. If there is some common link of support somewhere. If I could be loved and supported and not judged. If I could be a resource or support for someone else. This all began to feel so one-dimensional.
I love my life...all the good, the bad and the ugly. I've grown and changed and learned from a lot of mistakes. And I feel like I know other bloggers too. I've been reading some blogs since the beginning of my journey. But they don't know me. Because I've been too afraid.
I came across a tweet in my feed not too long ago that peaked my interest. I became a follower. I was mulling over whether or not now was my time to go "public". To really put myself out there and get to know my online communities.
This is why The Mom Pledge is important to me. It has given me the courage to not let the bullies keep me from friendship and growth. It's given me the confidence to not worry about what others think. It's given me a community of women who will support and encourage me instead of ridicule and judge me.
I'm excited for this stage in my journey, and I look forward to getting to know these other fabulous moms as well!
I'm glad I took the pledge and I hope you will, too!